My Dad, My Hero

My Dad went to heaven on September 12, 2021, after a short battle with Covid-19. This is the message that I was privileged to speak at his Celebration of Life Service....

One of the earliest memories I have of my Dad is when I was about five years old during the time we lived in Florida. I was on the sidewalk in front of our house playing hopscotch when I jumped onto a large piece of broken glass. The pain was excruciating and I immediately began crying and screaming. In just moments, my Dad ran out of the house and scooped me up in his arms and whisked me inside, so that he and Mom could tend to my injury. He was my hero, like Superman coming on the scene right when I needed him. 

As a little girl, I thought my Dad was perfect. In my eyes, he could do no wrong. Even though as an adult I know that he was not perfect—because no one is—I think that my little girl heart still sees him as perfect.

From my Dad I learned that the most important relationship I will ever have is the one I have with my Father in heaven through Jesus Christ my Savior. My brothers will agree with me that serving Jesus and teaching the Word of God were the joys of his life. I loved to hear him teach, and whenever I had a question about the Bible, he was the first person I wanted to talk to. I remember being mesmerized by what he had to say, and was so proud of his knowledge of the Word of God. His love of the Word was evident in his conversation even as the years passed, right up to the end of his earthly life.

As children, when we awoke on Sunday morning, there was never a question, “Are we going to church?” When we woke up on Sunday morning, we knew that we were going to put on our best Sunday clothes and head to the house of God. 

Dad loved his children, and he knew the greatest contribution he could make into our lives was not teaching us how to achieve worldly success, but rather it was instilling in us a desire to serve God. That, I believe, was his greatest gift to us.

From Dad we learned consistency, dedication and commitment to the ways of God. Even in the face of heartache, many health issues, and what sometimes seemed to be insurmountable problems, we saw our Dad love and serve God through it all. 

J.T. did not leave a lot of material wealth, but he left us a legacy that continues on. He lives in us as we serve Christ and minister the love of God to others.   

He was a gentle man, but strong in his beliefs and in his dedication to God. And with every difficulty, he kept his positive spirit and beautiful smile.

I was able to spend the last two days and nights of Dad’s life with him at the hospital. There was never any indication during that time that he knew I was there, but the hours I spent with him are precious to me. I talked to him, I touched him, I sang to him. I am so glad it was possible for me to be there. 

The day before Dad went to heaven, I texted Bishop Mitchell and Wendy Corder to let them know what was happening. Later, I received a phone call from Bishop Corder. To my surprise, he was in Bristol to preach a service that weekend. I really believe this circumstance was God ordained. 

He came to the hospital on Sunday, just hours before Dad passed and ministered to us. The family that day had made the decision to take Dad off of bi-pap. It was heart-wrenching. Bishop Corder gave us encouragement, stating that we were not making a life or death decision; we were making a Life or Life decision. We had to make a decision regarding a machine. God would decide whether Dad would live on earth or in heaven. He would continue to live; it was just the matter of where he would live. His life was in God’s hands, and it was God’s decision.

This was demonstrated emphatically to us a few hours later….

While my brothers and I had fallen asleep in Dad’s room from sheer physical and emotional exhaustion, I believe God said to Dad, “J.T. it’s time. Come on home.” And Dad quietly slipped out of the room. He left before the nurse came in to put him on the morphine drip, and before he was removed from the machine. God proved to us beyond all doubt that He is in control, and He made the decision at that particular time to take Dad home.

Psalm 116:15 says, “Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of his saints.” We see death as our enemy. But God uses death to bring His saints into His presence. What the enemy means for evil, God uses to accomplish good. God called His son J.T. Osborne home. And now he is with his heavenly Father, and is whole and happier than he has ever been. 

Janet, Keith, Tony, David, all who love J.T., our hearts will always have an emptiness, a missing piece, because of the loss of this great man. But we have the hope of eternity. Those of us who have a relationship with Jesus Christ, we know that we will see J.T. again. 

If he could stand before us now on his two perfect legs, I believe that he would say to us, “Make sure your heart is right with God. That is more important than anything else in your life!"

And I am sure that he would also say….

“It won’t be long. I’ll see you soon!”


He Walks With Me Through Darkness


I wrote this blog while going through a very dark season a few years ago, but at the time I was reluctant to make public what was happening in my life.  I feel prompted by the Lord to share it now….
My husband went to heaven in January 2014. About a week before his death, the Lord spoke to me, “I’m going to walk with you through darkness.” At that moment, I knew in my heart what was ahead, but it was so hard to accept. The thought of losing my husband was unbearable. My mind and heart screamed, “No!  I don’t want to walk through darkness!” It was after Wayne’s passing that I was advised by a godly man whom I trust to look at the positive aspect of that statement: Even though I must walk through darkness, I don’t have to walk alone. God said He would be with me. He would walk with me. He is walking with me. 
The darkness is not where I want to be, but here I am. I no longer have my husband by my side. And I find myself still questioning why God allowed it to happen. Now, I have accepted a new position and have moved away from everything familiar to me. I firmly believe I am in God’s will. In my spirit, I am assured that this is where I am supposed to be.
I came here for a “new beginning.” I thought I was going to walk out of darkness. But [in September 2015] three months after my move, I was told the same words that my husband heard four years earlier: “You have cancer.” My world crashed. My first thoughts were of my [then] 18-year-old daughter. How could this be happening so soon after my husband’s death? It was bewildering and devastating. I guess I somehow thought I was immune. Statistics tell us one in three will get cancer. The disease took my husband, Bethany’s father, and it was unfathomable that the same thing was happening to me. It has been difficult to comprehend that I must now fight this disease. It’s hard. It’s discouraging. It’s sometimes depressing. And I find myself further questioning my Father. 
Then I remember, God never said life would be easy. He never told us we wouldn’t suffer. In fact, He said the opposite. But we don’t want to face the difficulties of life. We want everything to fall into place according to our dreams and plans. Often, life takes a different direction than we expected. Through all of this, I somehow have to learn to trust that God can take this hard, discouraging thing and turn it into something good. He is still walking with me. He’s still working in my life. He hasn’t left me. His Word promises He will never forsake me. His desire is for me to submit to His will and let Him do in my heart what He wants to do.  
I have to remember, it’s not about me. It’s all about Him. It’s about Christ and what He did for lost humanity. He suffered and died so that those who will accept His sacrifice can live eternally with Him. It’s about getting that message to those who need to hear of His love. That’s what is important. Not how sick I am. Or how long I have left to live. While I know that God heals, I also know that none of us has promise of tomorrow. Any one of us could breathe our last breath today and step into eternity. The most important decision you can make, while you still have breath in your body, is to accept Jesus Christ as your Savior and commit your life to Him. 
I am so thankful that, though I walk through the darkness, God is with me. I can’t imagine facing the troubles of life without His guiding hand. More importantly, I am assured that His presence will be with me when the time comes for me to walk from this life into the next.
So, I place my hand in the hand of my Father and continue to walk, trusting Him to lead me according to His plan, and believing that I will walk out of the darkness with Him by my side.
Scriptures for Reflection
Psalm 23 (NKJV)
The Lord is my shepherd;
I shall not want.
He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside the still waters.
He restores my soul;
He leads me in the paths of righteousness
For His name’s sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You anoint my head with oil;
My cup runs over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
All the days of my life;
And I will dwell in the house of the Lord
Forever.

When the Father Says "Wait"

I am in a season of life in which I never wanted to be.  On your wedding day, you say the words "until death do us part."  But you hope it won't happen until you've spent many years together, and you are old and gray.

I have had much turmoil in my heart as I have fought with God for answers.  I've asked all the questions.  "Why?  Is this my fault?  Did I do something wrong?  Are You punishing me?  Why are You angry with me?  Why are all of these other couples growing old together, and I have lost my husband?"  I've been angry.  I hate to admit, there have been periods of time I would hardly speak to my Father.  But He held onto me.  He didn't give me answers.  But He lovingly and gently brought me back.

From the beginning of this season, a word I have continually heard in my spirit is, "Wait."  I sensed that everything I did, every decision I made, He wanted me to take my time, not rush.  And I have had many decisions to make.  So I have endeavored to remain calm and take one step at a time.

Even though God spoke to me, and I knew He had His hand on me, at the same time I have been unsettled, agitated, worried; because if you have a good marriage to a man you love and then you lose him, you don't want to be alone.  And while grieving for Wayne, I have been taunted and haunted by thoughts of spending the rest of my life alone and wondering what the future holds.  But God is gracious, and He has helped me--through His Word, through the advice of friends, and through books, songs, sermons and prayers--to gain a measure of peace.  He has spoken to my storm and calmed me.  I finally came to a point of surrender where I could honestly say, "Lord, not my will, but Yours be done.  I want to be an instrument in Your Hands.  I want to live my life as You would have me to, doing what You have placed in my heart to do.  And I will follow Your plan whatever that is."  It is tremendously freeing to finally come to that place.

I know there are still rough days ahead.  I also know that God, my Father cares.  And He is still speaking to me-- "Wait."  He wants me to wait while He works in my heart and prepares me for the next season.  So, I will continue in this season of waiting. 

Lord, I submit to the working of Your Spirit.  Do a work in me that only You can do.

Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord! (Psalm 27:14, NKJV)

Our soul waits for the Lord; He is our help and our shield. (Psalm 33:20, NKJV)

But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint. (Isaiah 40:31, NKJV)

God Finishes What He Starts

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Do you have half-finished projects in your life? You know, those things that you started with such enthusiasm, and for whatever reason somewhere along the way you lost your drive to bring to completion. I believe we have all been in that situation. It can be disheartening to see something you started that you were excited about, but then for some reason you just didn’t follow through. Maybe you got busy with something else, some other project distracted you, and you left thinking “I’ll get back to this later.” And then you never did.

I am so thankful that when God works on the “project” of our lives He doesn’t stop before it is finished. Philippians 1:6 tells us, “. . . he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” That is such an encouraging verse! When you feel that your life is just not the way you want it to be, remember that as long as you are living for Him, God is working on you. He has a plan. He wants you to seek His face and find out what that plan is. And He wants to complete it. I love the children’s song, He’s still working on me to make me what I ought to be. It took Him just a week to make the moon and the stars, the sun and the earth and Jupiter and Mars. How loving and patient He must be. He’s still working on me.*

So, be encouraged! If you haven’t already done so, submit your life to God. If you have, but you’ve gotten distracted, get back on track and ask God to show you what He wants for your life. Tell Him you want Him in the driver’s seat. I believe you will be amazed at the work He will complete in your life!

*He’s Still Working On Me, Joel Hemphill

Copying the Master

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Recently at work I received a request to send to an individual an application for one of our ministry training programs. When I opened the file in which I keep the forms, I had only one left—the original. To keep me from sending my original form, I had placed on the front of it a post-it note on which I had written the word “Master.” When I saw that word, it came to mind that the Word tells us Jesus is our Master.  I was using the master form to make a copy, and we are to be “copies” of the Master.

Just as a copy printed from a copy machine will never be the quality of the original, in our humanity we can never be exactly like Jesus. But the Word instructs us that we are to endeavor to be like Him. Oh, how different life would be if all of us who have accepted Christ would live as a copy of Jesus in this world! That is the reason we are left here after salvation. We are Christ’s representatives on this earth, living to do His work and accomplish His will.

WWJD bracelets have been popular among Christians. These initials represent the question, “What Would Jesus Do?” In every circumstance of our lives, these are the questions we need to ask ourselves: “What would Jesus do? How would He respond? What attitude would He have? What action would He take?” And then we are to behave in the same manner. Everything Jesus did while on this earth, He did from the motivation of love. We as His followers are to do the same. Our actions should always show forth the love of Christ.

Jesus came to this earth to love and to give. He loved humanity enough to give His life. He is asking us to also love humanity and to give ourselves to the task of bringing as many as we can to a saving knowledge of the Lord Jesus Christ!

Scripture for Reflection
And whatever you do or say, do it as a representative of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks through him to God the Father. (Colossians 3:17, NLT)

Rest For Our Souls

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My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken. (Psalm 62:1-2, NIV)

My family just came back from our summer vacation. It was an enjoyable time spent away from our normal, daily routine. It was great to “get away from it all” and relax with family, and not think about responsibilities waiting back at home.

The last couple of months leading up to our vacation were very busy for me, and many times during those months, I encountered the above scripture. My soul finds rest in God alone. I came across it so many times and in so many ways that I knew God wanted my attention focused on that scripture.

My soul finds rest in God alone. It is calming just to hear those words. We can find temporary rest by going on a vacation, but there are still fifty-one other weeks in the year that are filled with many activities and sometimes overwhelming responsibilities. During those times, we can find rest by going to God alone.

When the cares of life threaten to destroy us, it is wonderful that we can go to our Father and find rest. Our salvation, our deliverance comes from Him.

Instead of trying to figure out the answers to all of life’s problems yourself, go to the One who has the answers and find rest for your soul in Him.

Scriptures for Reflection

Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light. (Matthew 11:29-30)

Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you. (1 Peter 5:7)

Our Daily Choice

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All of us who are Christians can look back to a specific time in our life when we made the choice to accept Jesus Christ as our Savior. But being a follower of Christ is a daily decision. Joshua told the children of Israel, “Choose you this day whom you will serve . . .” (Joshua 24:15).

Every day when I wake up, I have a choice to make: Will I live for God, or will I live for myself? Our natural tendencies would lead us to live selfish lives, doing what pleases our flesh. There are many distractions—so many ways our enemy has to pull us away from doing what is right. Choosing to please the Lord in our daily walk takes a conscious decision. And it is only when we choose to follow the leading of the Holy Spirit that we are able to please our Father.

Because we live such busy lives, it is easy to get up each morning and “hit the ground running,” without taking the time to fellowship with the Lord and get His direction for the day.

How much better our days are when we take a few moments to consciously decide, “Today, I will follow Jesus.” Joshua said it best, “. . . as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.” (Joshua 24:15).

Scripture for Reflection

And he said to them all, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me. (Luke 9:23)