A Closer Walk
Sharing Insights On My Spiritual Journey As I Walk With Christ
Let My Life Be A Light
Love Keeps No Record of Wrongs
The Lord is continually reminding me that I must love with His love. I have even asked Him to make me a conduit of His love. That is not possible while I am holding anger and unforgiveness in my heart. The Holy Spirit is teaching me that with His help I can rise above the hurt and pain, and show the love of God even to those who have caused me pain and may never ask for forgiveness, and even to those who may never love me.
Jesus is our example. The love and forgiveness provided through His sacrificial death were made available to all, including those who nailed Him to the cross. As He was dying, His prayer for those who crucified Him was, "Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do (Luke 23:34).
My Dad, My Hero
My Dad went to heaven on September 12, 2021, after a short battle with Covid-19. This is the message that I was privileged to speak at his Celebration of Life Service....
One of the earliest memories I have of my Dad is when I was about five years old during the time we lived in Florida. I was on the sidewalk in front of our house playing hopscotch when I jumped onto a large piece of broken glass. The pain was excruciating and I immediately began crying and screaming. In just moments, my Dad ran out of the house and scooped me up in his arms and whisked me inside, so that he and Mom could tend to my injury. He was my hero, like Superman coming on the scene right when I needed him.
As a little girl, I thought my Dad was
perfect. In my eyes, he could do no
wrong. Even though as an adult I know that
he was not perfect—because no one is—I think that my little girl heart still
sees him as perfect.
From my Dad I learned that the most
important relationship I will ever have is the one I have with my Father in
heaven through Jesus Christ my Savior. My
brothers will agree with me that serving Jesus and teaching the Word of God
were the joys of his life. I loved to
hear him teach, and whenever I had a question about the Bible, he was the first
person I wanted to talk to. I remember
being mesmerized by what he had to say, and was so proud of his knowledge of
the Word of God. His love of the Word
was evident in his conversation even as the years passed, right up to the end
of his earthly life.
As children, when we awoke on Sunday
morning, there was never a question, “Are we going to church?” When we woke up on Sunday morning, we knew that
we were going to put on our best Sunday clothes and head to the house of
God.
Dad loved his children, and he knew
the greatest contribution he could make into our lives was not teaching us how
to achieve worldly success, but rather it was instilling in us a desire to serve
God. That, I believe, was his greatest
gift to us.
From Dad we learned consistency, dedication
and commitment to the ways of God. Even
in the face of heartache, many health issues, and what sometimes seemed to be insurmountable
problems, we saw our Dad love and serve God through it all.
J.T. did not leave a lot of material
wealth, but he left us a legacy that continues on. He lives in us as we serve Christ and minister
the love of God to others.
He was a gentle man, but strong in his
beliefs and in his dedication to God. And
with every difficulty, he kept his positive spirit and beautiful smile.
I was able to spend the last two days
and nights of Dad’s life with him at the hospital. There was never any indication during that
time that he knew I was there, but the hours I spent with him are precious to
me. I talked to him, I touched him, I
sang to him. I am so glad it was
possible for me to be there.
The day before Dad went to heaven, I
texted Bishop Mitchell and Wendy Corder to let them know what was
happening. Later, I received a phone
call from Bishop Corder. To my surprise,
he was in Bristol to preach a service that weekend. I
really believe this circumstance was God ordained.
He came to the hospital on Sunday, just hours before Dad passed and ministered to us. The family that day had made the decision to take Dad off of bi-pap. It was heart-wrenching. Bishop Corder gave us encouragement, stating that we were not making a life or death decision; we were making a Life or Life decision. We had to make a decision regarding a machine. God would decide whether Dad would live on earth or in heaven. He would continue to live; it was just the matter of where he would live. His life was in God’s hands, and it was God’s decision.
This was demonstrated emphatically to us a few hours later….
While my brothers and I had fallen asleep in Dad’s room from sheer physical and emotional exhaustion, I believe God said to Dad, “J.T. it’s time. Come on home.” And Dad quietly slipped out of the room. He left before the nurse came in to put him on the morphine drip, and before he was removed from the machine. God proved to us beyond all doubt that He is in control, and He made the decision at that particular time to take Dad home.
Psalm 116:15 says, “Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of his saints.” We see death as our enemy. But God uses death to bring His saints into His presence. What the enemy means for evil, God uses to accomplish good. God called His son J.T. Osborne home. And now he is with his heavenly Father, and is whole and happier than he has ever been.
Janet, Keith, Tony, David, all who
love J.T., our hearts will always have an emptiness, a missing piece, because
of the loss of this great man. But we
have the hope of eternity. Those of us who
have a relationship with Jesus Christ, we know that we will see J.T.
again.
If he could stand before us now on his two perfect legs, I believe that he would say to us, “Make sure your heart is right with God. That is more important than anything else in your life!"
And I am sure that he would also say….
“It won’t be long. I’ll see you soon!”
He Walks With Me Through Darkness
I wrote
this blog while going through a very dark season a few years ago, but at the
time I was reluctant to make public what was happening in my life. I feel prompted by the Lord to share it now….I shall not want.
2 He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside the still waters.
3 He restores my soul;
He leads me in the paths of righteousness
For His name’s sake.
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
You anoint my head with oil;
My cup runs over.
6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
All the days of my life;
And I will dwell in the house of the Lord
Forever.
When the Father Says "Wait"
I have had much turmoil in my heart as I have fought with God for answers. I've asked all the questions. "Why? Is this my fault? Did I do something wrong? Are You punishing me? Why are You angry with me? Why are all of these other couples growing old together, and I have lost my husband?" I've been angry. I hate to admit, there have been periods of time I would hardly speak to my Father. But He held onto me. He didn't give me answers. But He lovingly and gently brought me back.
From the beginning of this season, a word I have continually heard in my spirit is, "Wait." I sensed that everything I did, every decision I made, He wanted me to take my time, not rush. And I have had many decisions to make. So I have endeavored to remain calm and take one step at a time.
Even though God spoke to me, and I knew He had His hand on me, at the same time I have been unsettled, agitated, worried; because if you have a good marriage to a man you love and then you lose him, you don't want to be alone. And while grieving for Wayne, I have been taunted and haunted by thoughts of spending the rest of my life alone and wondering what the future holds. But God is gracious, and He has helped me--through His Word, through the advice of friends, and through books, songs, sermons and prayers--to gain a measure of peace. He has spoken to my storm and calmed me. I finally came to a point of surrender where I could honestly say, "Lord, not my will, but Yours be done. I want to be an instrument in Your Hands. I want to live my life as You would have me to, doing what You have placed in my heart to do. And I will follow Your plan whatever that is." It is tremendously freeing to finally come to that place.
I know there are still rough days ahead. I also know that God, my Father cares. And He is still speaking to me-- "Wait." He wants me to wait while He works in my heart and prepares me for the next season. So, I will continue in this season of waiting.
Lord, I submit to the working of Your Spirit. Do a work in me that only You can do.
Wait on the Lord; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the Lord! (Psalm 27:14, NKJV)
Our soul waits for the Lord; He is our help and our shield. (Psalm 33:20, NKJV)
But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint. (Isaiah 40:31, NKJV)
God Finishes What He Starts
Do you have half-finished projects in your life? You know, those things that you started with such enthusiasm, and for whatever reason somewhere along the way you lost your drive to bring to completion. I believe we have all been in that situation. It can be disheartening to see something you started that you were excited about, but then for some reason you just didn’t follow through. Maybe you got busy with something else, some other project distracted you, and you left thinking “I’ll get back to this later.” And then you never did.
I am so thankful that when God works on the “project” of our lives He doesn’t stop before it is finished. Philippians 1:6 tells us, “. . . he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” That is such an encouraging verse! When you feel that your life is just not the way you want it to be, remember that as long as you are living for Him, God is working on you. He has a plan. He wants you to seek His face and find out what that plan is. And He wants to complete it. I love the children’s song, He’s still working on me to make me what I ought to be. It took Him just a week to make the moon and the stars, the sun and the earth and Jupiter and Mars. How loving and patient He must be. He’s still working on me.*
So, be encouraged! If you haven’t already done so, submit your life to God. If you have, but you’ve gotten distracted, get back on track and ask God to show you what He wants for your life. Tell Him you want Him in the driver’s seat. I believe you will be amazed at the work He will complete in your life!
*He’s Still Working On Me, Joel Hemphill
Copying the Master
Recently at work I received a request to send to an individual an application for one of our ministry training programs. When I opened the file in which I keep the forms, I had only one left—the original. To keep me from sending my original form, I had placed on the front of it a post-it note on which I had written the word “Master.” When I saw that word, it came to mind that the Word tells us Jesus is our Master. I was using the master form to make a copy, and we are to be “copies” of the Master.
Just as a copy printed from a copy machine will never be the quality of the original, in our humanity we can never be exactly like Jesus. But the Word instructs us that we are to endeavor to be like Him. Oh, how different life would be if all of us who have accepted Christ would live as a copy of Jesus in this world! That is the reason we are left here after salvation. We are Christ’s representatives on this earth, living to do His work and accomplish His will.
WWJD bracelets have been popular among Christians. These initials represent the question, “What Would Jesus Do?” In every circumstance of our lives, these are the questions we need to ask ourselves: “What would Jesus do? How would He respond? What attitude would He have? What action would He take?” And then we are to behave in the same manner. Everything Jesus did while on this earth, He did from the motivation of love. We as His followers are to do the same. Our actions should always show forth the love of Christ.
Jesus came to this earth to love and to give. He loved humanity enough to give His life. He is asking us to also love humanity and to give ourselves to the task of bringing as many as we can to a saving knowledge of the Lord Jesus Christ!
Scripture for Reflection
And whatever you do or say, do it as a representative of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks through him to God the Father. (Colossians 3:17, NLT)

