This is my testimony of God’s delivering power!
I was alone in my bed one night when suddenly I heard what sounded like a man’s voice. The voice came from very near me, but I saw no one. I remember being instantly terrified and paralyzed by fear!
I could not find my voice; I was unable to scream. It was as if I was frozen in place—unable to go to my parents for help and comfort.
For some reason, I never spoke of that night. It was a mysterious memory that always perplexed me.
I have only ever been able to recall two of the words that were spoken to me: “timid” and “rabbit.” At the time I wasn’t even sure what the word “timid” meant.
At some point as I grew older, my Mom told me that I had been a friendly and outgoing toddler. I was so friendly that she was concerned that someone would try to take me and I would just go with them without objection. I have no memory of being that friendly child.
My memories are of a childhood dominated by fear. I was afraid of everyone and everything!
It is obvious that something happened to that happy, outgoing toddler to cause extreme fear. But I had no comprehension of what had occurred.
As I grew up I believed that I was nothing. I was no one. I felt inferior in almost every way.
I believed my only redeeming quality was that I was smart. I loved learning and easily earned good grades in my classes. So I did enjoy school, but relationships were difficult, as I always felt I didn’t measure up to others.
At the age of 17 I was hired by a law firm. During the years I worked there I came out of my shell somewhat because I excelled as a legal secretary. But I believe fear suppressed my real personality. It dogged my every step in life.
When I was age 27, during a time of intense prayer and fasting, God began a new work in my heart. (I had become a Christian at the age of nine.) One night after several hours of Bible study and prayer, I was in my apartment alone, talking to God as I sat on my bedroom floor. I asked Him a question: “Why have I always been so shy and backward and afraid of everything?”
By the unction of the Holy Spirit, I began to speak in tongues. I had a sudden realization that God was going to answer my question! Then I began to speak the interpretation of the tongues in English. From the first words I knew that I was finally going to understand the night I heard the voice.
This is the message the Holy Spirit spoke through me:
“When you were a little girl,
only four years old,
an evil spirit spoke to you
and tried to scare you,
and it did.
That evil spirit has been
with you ever since!”
Of course I realized that if the spirit had been with me ever since it was still there! Being made aware of its presence, my immediate reaction was to command it to leave me in the name of Jesus!
There was no physical wind, but I felt a sensation of wind as the presence fled the room! It was very dramatic. I sat there in shock.
Then, with much rejoicing, I realized that everything had changed. And from that moment to this I have never been the same!
Have I ever struggled with fear since that night? Yes. When the enemy has been able to harass you for 23 years, he is not going to give up easily. But I have never gone back to the way I was before. And now I am experiencing more freedom from fear than I have ever known!
A few days after my deliverance, upon contemplating what God had revealed to me, I asked Him another question: “What did the evil spirit say to me?” His answer:
“You will be as timid as a rabbit for the rest of your life!”
Everything became so clear! The evil spirit had placed a curse on me. And then he stayed with me to oversee the fulfillment of the curse!
Thank God for His delivering power! Thank God that He does not leave us as He found us! When we yield to Him, He transforms our lives!
God delivered me from fear! He rescued me from the power of darkness!
“I waited patiently for the Lord to help me, and he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out of the mud and the mire. He set my feet on solid ground and steadied me as I walked along. He has given me a new song to sing, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see what he has done and be amazed. They will put their trust in the Lord.” (Psalm 40:1-3 NLT)
Hallelujah!
Lord, thank You for setting me free!
My friend, whatever you are struggling with, let me tell you—God wants to set you free, and He has the power to do it! Call on Him and He will transform your life!
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